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Quote: Ryan Murphy

 

 

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Out That Door

Out that door - poem

 

 

Out That Door

 

 

 

 

 

When you walked away

When you walked out that door

I thought my life was over

Thought I’d sorrow forever more

I would sit alone and cry

My heart in pieces in my hand

Too tired to fight

Too broken to stand

 

 

I gave it all

Gave my life, my soul, my heart

Gave you everything

All I had, right from the start

I would have given my life

If it meant saving yours

You were the reason

You were the cause

 

 

I lived for your smile

Lived for your laugh and love

I thought we were forever

Thought we would rise above

But I was wrong

You never loved me

I was blinded

A fool who just couldn’t see

 

 

Love isn’t love

When it intentionally causes pain

Love doesn’t think only of self

Only about what it can gain

Love keeps on trying

Love gives more than it takes

Love tries to make better

The other persons heart aches

 

 

But that wasn’t you

It was always only me

And it took a heart stabbed over and over

Before I could see

You gave me away

In the blink of an eye

Left me alone

Left love to fade away and die

 

 

You didn’t care

You didn’t think of my pain

You left me there

Left me in the cold dark rain

I was a shadow

A nothingness in your mind

A muted voice

When it came to me – you were blind

 

 

But life is never over

For a heart that is true

There is always a tomorrow

Always a new and more beautiful view

I find now I’m wiser

And I’m braver

And when I look back at you

I see now – you did me a favor

 

 

When you went your way

With selfish abandon

You opened to me to a future

I had never planned on

Freed of your shackles

I wandered confused and blind

Until I stumbled heedlessly into love

The forever after kind

 

 

The sweetest snare

The most comfortable place

I could finally see a future

Written in every line of that face

I could see with a new clarity

And now I know

How the rest of my story

Is sure to go

 

 

No more tears and pain

No more pointless tomorrow

Nothing to doubt

Nothing to sorrow

A love that’s true

Radiant and real

With a man not afraid

To feel what I feel

 

 

I’ve found my home

So easy, so free

A place where I can breathe

Where I can truly be me

A hand to hold

Through every dark winters night

A voice to laugh with

When life’s sun is smilingly bright

 

 

A heart that sings

In tune with mine

A soul that brings a beat

To all my rhyme

Eyes that can see

Straight through to my heart

Beside me every day

Even if oceans should keep us apart

 

 

This is the end of a story

An epic tale

Where the good triumph

As the evil fail

Heroes struggle to the end

Through despair and night

Through many dark perils

Until they find the light

 

 

I struggled in loneliness

Wrapped up in a mask

Ten years of not knowing

Which questions to ask

Ten years of despair

Disguised with a laugh

Stumbling blindfolded

Groping along an impossible path

 

 

And even before that

I longed to roam

For I always felt like an outcast

In the place I called home

They never really knew me

They just passed on by

And I always knew

I had to go, had to fly

 

 

For I knew out there

Somewhere under the same moon

Some one was looking up

Asking God for a boon

Under some distant set of stars

Someone was asking for me

Calling out across

Some storm tossed sea

 

 

I heard that call

But on my way to him

I came across you

And I fell to your whim

I followed you down

Through valleys of thorn and mire

Through howling storms

And searing fire

 

 

But now I’m on the other side

Looking back through the pain

A phoenix rising

Born from the ashes and flame

I am grateful

For all the lessons you taught me

Thank you for where I am

Thank you for where you’ve brought me

 

 

I can’t regret the past

The when and the how

For look at the outcome

Look at me now

I’ve found my future

I know who I am

I’ve faced the good and the bad

And I know how to stand

 

 

I’ve found my love

I’ve found where I belong

For I found that soul

That was calling out to me all along

Now I’m never alone

Never again anymore

So thanks be to you

For walking out that door

 

 

Rach

2008

 

Out that door - ryan murphy quote

 

 

“Trust in Jehovah and do what is good;

Reside in the earth, and act with faithfulness.

Find exquisite delight in Jehovah,

And he will grant you the desires of your heart.”

– Psalm 37:3-4, David, Son of Jess

 

 

“When one door closes another door opens;

but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door,

that we do not see the ones which open for us. “

– Alexander Graham Bell

 

 

“Finish each day and be done with it. 

You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in;

forget them as soon as you can. 

Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely

and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”

– Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

 

“Hope begins in the dark,

the stubborn hope that if you just show up

and try to do the right thing,

the dawn will come”

– Anne Lamott

 

 

“The human story does not always unfold like a mathematical calculation on the principle that two and two make four.  Sometimes in life they make five or minus three; and sometimes the blackboard topples down in the middle of the sum and leaves the class in disorder and the pedagogue with a black eye.”

– Winston Churchill

 

 

“Your heart has been sore wounded too.

Dear Light, love shall cherish you,

till you again look on life with happy eyes.”

– Byron Caldwell Smith, letter to Kate Stephens

 

 


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Good Enough

Rach and the Prince - I hate the day

 

 

Good Enough

 

 

 

 

Once Upon a time

I thought you were my prince

You were Mr. Perfect

Of that I was convinced

 

I thought you were clever

I considered you wise

You were so wonderful

A treasure, a fantastical prize

 

You weren’t  a flirt

And you wouldn’t hide

You were exactly like me

I thought with naive pride

 

You were my friend

You would look out for me

And one day you’d carry me off

On your dashing white steed

 

I imbued you with all the qualities

Of the man I imagined you to be

I thought you were the one

The only one for me

 

And although the question niggled

Was I good enough for you?

I never picked up

Just asking that should’ve been a clue

 

Then once upon a time

I woke up to watch helpless as you ran

I heard lying words on your lips

And realised my prince was made of sand

 

There was no Mr. Perfect

In fact, there was no man

There was just a boy

And his big marching band

 

You had to keep up

You had to sing along

You feared to be different

And so you just marched on and on

 

You weren’t looking out for me

There was no dashing steed

There was just you

And there was just me

 

At the time I was crushed

Disappointed to realise

You were just as flawed as me

You were no fantastical prize

 

But looking back I laugh

Because now I plainly see

The question I should’ve been asking was:

Were you good enough for me?

 

 

 

Rach

2008

 

 

“He who joyfully marches to music in rank and file has already earned my contempt. 

He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would fully suffice.” 

~ Albert Einstein

 

 

“A man must consider what a rich realm he abdicates when he becomes a conformist.”

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

 

 

“Ideals are like stars; you will not succeed in touching them with your hands. 

But like the seafaring man on the desert of waters, you choose them as your guides,

and following them you will reach your destiny.”

– Carl Schurz, address, Faneuil Hall, Boston, 1859

 

 

“Bachelors’ wives and old maids’ children are always perfect.”

– Nicholas Chamfort

 

 


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Liberated

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Liberated

 

 

 

Free to fly

Free to live

Liberated to finally

Just forgive

 

 

Nothing to think

Nothing left to tell

No more need

To sit and dwell

 

 

No more heart ache

No more fears

None of those bitter

Midnight tears

 

 

Allowed to forget

Allowed to move on

Permitted to let

What is past just be gone

 

 

What I almost forgot

What is plain to see

Is that He was always right there

Alone with me

 

 

Others turned away

Others didn’t want to know

But he never ever

Let me go

 

 

It was down to the end

It was down to the wire

And it was then

He plucked me from the fire

 

 

He was there

He held on tight

Slaying all my demons

Without a fight

 

 

I learnt a lesson

I learnt something I already knew

Give over your burden

And He’ll carry it for you

 

 

You’ve done what you can

You’ve done all you could

Tried to do your best

To do what you should

 

 

But if you still don’t know

But if you still can’t see

Then it’s time to just

Let it be

 

 

Time to stand still

Time to wait without doubt

Because He is listening

He hears your shout

 

 

Wait and be patient

Wait and be calm

Even the toughest, fiercest enemy

He can disarm

 

 

There is an answer

There is a way

But you can’t see it

When you’re in the fray

 

 

Can’t see the puzzle

Can’t see the pieces coming together

You don’t know when or how

Or even whether

 

 

But He can

He does

So you just have to hold on

And trust

 

 

Trust He hears

Trust He does care

Don’t let those demons

Drive you from Him in despair

 

 

You’ll see Him act

You’ll feel it in your soul

When He holds out His hand

And pulls you from that deep, dark, black hole

 

 

He pulled me out

He set me free

And now I can finally

Just be me

 

 

I feel warmth again

I feel alive

I know now there’s nothing

I can’t survive

 

 

It’s a new sun that’s rising

It’s a brand new day

And as I stand to greet it

The shackles slip away

 

 

Tomorrow is clear

Tomorrow is light

The sky tomorrow

Is wide and bright

 

 

A cloud with a silvery lining

A rainbow appears

My eyes are washed

With happy tears

 

 

My eyes see

My heart sings

And I can feel the wind

Under new found wings

 

 

Lifted off my feet

Lifted into the blue

I’ve never seen

A more beautiful view

 

 

Soaring into tomorrow

Soaring into the free

Liberated to never forget

What He did for me

 

 

Rach

2008

 

 

“For I, Jehovah your God, am grasping your right hand,

The one saying to you: ‘Do not be afraid. I myself will help you.’”

– Isaiah 41:13

 

 

“With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

– Jesus Christ, Matthew 19:26

 

 

“My very heart is in severe pain within me

and the frights of death itself have fallen upon me.

Fear, yes, trembling itself enters into me

And shuddering covers me

And I kept saying: O that I had wings as a dove has!

I would fly away and reside

Look! I would go far away in flight

I would lodge in the Wilderness.

I would hasten to a place of escape for me

From the rushing wind

From the tempest…

For it was not an enemy that proceeded to reproach me

Otherwise I could put up with it…

But it was you, a mortal man who was my equal

One familiar to me and my acquaintance

Because we used to enjoy sweet intimacy together

Into the house of God we used to walk with the throng…

As for me, to God I shall call out

And Jehovah himself will save me

Evening and morning and noontime I cannot but show concern and I moan

And he hears my voice.

He will certainly redeem my soul in peace from the fight that is against me…

Throw your burden upon Jehovah himself

And he himself will sustain you.

Never will he allow the righteous one to totter…

As for me – I shall trust you.”

– David Son of Jesse, Psalms Chapter 55 

 

 

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When you’ve seen a miracle performed in a very personal way in your own life – something impossible, something that meant everything to you – you never forget. And you find ways to say ‘thank you’ every single day afterwards. ~ Rach


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Want You

 

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Want You

 

 

I want you to whisper

In my ear one more time

I want you to whisper

That you’ll always be mine

 

I want you to tell me

That I won’t be left alone

I want you to tell me

That you’re always coming home

 

I want you to ask me

To open up the door

I want you to ask me

To be yours forever more

 

I want you to say

I mean everything to you

I want you to say

You’ll always be true

 

I want you to feel

That you’re safe with me

I want you to feel

You can be open and free

 

I want you to have

Confidence in you

I want you to have

Faith in us two

 

I want you to find

Yourself when you hold me tight

I want you to find

Peace each and every night

 

I want you to see

your tomorrow in my eyes

I want you to see

me beside you every sunrise

 

I want you to give me

A bright and shining star

I want you to give me

All that you are

 

I want you to take

My hand in both of yours

I want you to take

Me to new and distant shores

 

I want you to know

We are a worthwhile endeavour

I want you to know

I’m with you to forever

 

 

 

Rach

2008 

 

 


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You Are

 

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You Are

 

 

 

You are the reason I’m smiling

Smiling each and every day

You are the reason I wanna fly

Fly far, far away

 

You are the reason the stars come out

Come out to play

You are the reason I’m dreaming

Dreaming the night away

 

You are the warmth I feel

Feel down to my toes

You are the happy ending to the story

The story nobody knows

 

You are the one I wanna hold

Wanna hold tight

You are the one that makes everything

Everything all right

 

You are the one I wanna hug

Wanna hug and kiss

You are the one I can’t help

Can’t help but miss

 

You are the reason I laugh

Laugh through my tears

You are the reason I’ve given up

Given up all my fears

 

You are the reason I don’t feel alone

Alone anymore

You are the one who always gives

Gives me more

 

You are the one I wanna be with forever

Forever and a day

You are the only one who makes me feel

Makes me feel this way

 

You are the one who’s got me singing

Singing all day long

You are the one who showed me where

Where I belong

 

 

You are the golden sunshine

Sunshine on my face

You are the voice

Voice that makes my heart race

 

You are the endless ocean lapping

Lapping to my shore

You are the future knocking

Knocking at my door

 

You are the wish I never knew

Never knew I made

You are the truest love

Love that will never fade

 

 

Rach

2008

 

 


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Who

Who

 

Who?

 

 

 

Who is the one for whom I long?

Who is the one who makes me feel I belong?

Who tells me tales with his laughing eyes?

Who tells me I’m the one he’ll always prize?

Who has the most adorable face?

Who has the ability to make my heart race?

Who loves to kiss and hug and nibble?

Who loves to always make me giggle?

Who has a voice I could listen to all day?

Who has that charming happy way?

Who always takes away my fears?

Who always makes me smile through my tears?

Who is so sweet it’s almost a sin?

Who is the one that makes me grin?

Who tells me nothing but the truth?

Who tells me he believes without needing proof?

Who shows me the warmth and the faith?

Who shows me it’s really not too late?

Who has everything I want and need?

Who has stood by me in word and deed?

Who is the one that was sent from up above?

Who is my one and only true love?

 

 

Rach

2008