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Al & Me 2 Collage with Quote by Clara Ortega








I didn’t realize it

Until he went away

How much I’d miss him

How much I wish he could stay


Sitting at the airport

After saying goodbye

I suddenly felt

An overwhelming urge to cry


Al had made a real effort

When times had been bad

To help me get out

To keep me from getting too sad


He bought me a bike

He took me to soccer

And I know if he hadn’t cared

He really wouldn’t have bothered


We had some issues

A few problems earlier on

But we got over those

And learnt to get along


I found Al’s sense of humor

And love of good wine

Made him the best company

When I needed to unwind


And there isn’t a more passionate

Or fanatical football fan

Playing it and watching it

Whenever he can


But I love football

So that suited me too

And Al and I

Watched a live match or two


But our taste in movies

Is a little bit different

I like a happy ending

Whereas Al likes them deep and a bit bent


But we always enjoyed it

No matter how bad the movie turned out to be

The beer afterwards really helped us forget

The crap we’d wasted ten bucks to see


So even when it was hard

When all I wanted to do was cry

We still had fun together

Al and I


I realize now

Al was as hurt as me in his own way

He just didn’t say it as much

In that typical guy way


But now we are both doing well

Seems our wounds are healing

We understand each other better

We have more fellow feeling


Al’s a good guy

He’s a great brother

And I’m really happy that we have

More appreciation for each other


So it’s kind of sad

Now things are happy and everything is ok

To be so far apart

To be so far away


But I guess missing Al

Is better than not

Because at least it shows

We’ve both grown up a lot


I will always remember

That when the chips were down

Al was there for me

And helped me turn things around


That’s what family is for

That’s what brothers and sisters do

They give and forgive

And they love (erk choke argh spit) each other too








~ for my brother and my friend,  Al ~



“I don’t believe an accident of birth makes people sisters or brothers.

It makes them siblings, gives them mutuality of parentage.

Sisterhood and brotherhood is a condition people have to work at.”

– Maya Angelou




“After a girl is grown,

Her little brother

– Now her protector –

Seems more like a big brother.”

– Astrid Alauda











Out That Door

Out that door - poem



Out That Door






When you walked away

When you walked out that door

I thought my life was over

Thought I’d sorrow forever more

I would sit alone and cry

My heart in pieces in my hand

Too tired to fight

Too broken to stand



I gave it all

Gave my life, my soul, my heart

Gave you everything

All I had, right from the start

I would have given my life

If it meant saving yours

You were the reason

You were the cause



I lived for your smile

Lived for your laugh and love

I thought we were forever

Thought we would rise above

But I was wrong

You never loved me

I was blinded

A fool who just couldn’t see



Love isn’t love

When it intentionally causes pain

Love doesn’t think only of self

Only about what it can gain

Love keeps on trying

Love gives more than it takes

Love tries to make better

The other persons heart aches



But that wasn’t you

It was always only me

And it took a heart stabbed over and over

Before I could see

You gave me away

In the blink of an eye

Left me alone

Left love to fade away and die



You didn’t care

You didn’t think of my pain

You left me there

Left me in the cold dark rain

I was a shadow

A nothingness in your mind

A muted voice

When it came to me – you were blind



But life is never over

For a heart that is true

There is always a tomorrow

Always a new and more beautiful view

I find now I’m wiser

And I’m braver

And when I look back at you

I see now – you did me a favor



When you went your way

With selfish abandon

You opened to me to a future

I had never planned on

Freed of your shackles

I wandered confused and blind

Until I stumbled heedlessly into love

The forever after kind



The sweetest snare

The most comfortable place

I could finally see a future

Written in every line of that face

I could see with a new clarity

And now I know

How the rest of my story

Is sure to go



No more tears and pain

No more pointless tomorrow

Nothing to doubt

Nothing to sorrow

A love that’s true

Radiant and real

With a man not afraid

To feel what I feel



I’ve found my home

So easy, so free

A place where I can breathe

Where I can truly be me

A hand to hold

Through every dark winters night

A voice to laugh with

When life’s sun is smilingly bright



A heart that sings

In tune with mine

A soul that brings a beat

To all my rhyme

Eyes that can see

Straight through to my heart

Beside me every day

Even if oceans should keep us apart



This is the end of a story

An epic tale

Where the good triumph

As the evil fail

Heroes struggle to the end

Through despair and night

Through many dark perils

Until they find the light



I struggled in loneliness

Wrapped up in a mask

Ten years of not knowing

Which questions to ask

Ten years of despair

Disguised with a laugh

Stumbling blindfolded

Groping along an impossible path



And even before that

I longed to roam

For I always felt like an outcast

In the place I called home

They never really knew me

They just passed on by

And I always knew

I had to go, had to fly



For I knew out there

Somewhere under the same moon

Some one was looking up

Asking God for a boon

Under some distant set of stars

Someone was asking for me

Calling out across

Some storm tossed sea



I heard that call

But on my way to him

I came across you

And I fell to your whim

I followed you down

Through valleys of thorn and mire

Through howling storms

And searing fire



But now I’m on the other side

Looking back through the pain

A phoenix rising

Born from the ashes and flame

I am grateful

For all the lessons you taught me

Thank you for where I am

Thank you for where you’ve brought me



I can’t regret the past

The when and the how

For look at the outcome

Look at me now

I’ve found my future

I know who I am

I’ve faced the good and the bad

And I know how to stand



I’ve found my love

I’ve found where I belong

For I found that soul

That was calling out to me all along

Now I’m never alone

Never again anymore

So thanks be to you

For walking out that door






Out that door - ryan murphy quote



“Trust in Jehovah and do what is good;

Reside in the earth, and act with faithfulness.

Find exquisite delight in Jehovah,

And he will grant you the desires of your heart.”

– Psalm 37:3-4, David, Son of Jess



“When one door closes another door opens;

but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door,

that we do not see the ones which open for us. “

– Alexander Graham Bell



“Finish each day and be done with it. 

You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in;

forget them as soon as you can. 

Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely

and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.”

– Ralph Waldo Emerson



“Hope begins in the dark,

the stubborn hope that if you just show up

and try to do the right thing,

the dawn will come”

– Anne Lamott



“The human story does not always unfold like a mathematical calculation on the principle that two and two make four.  Sometimes in life they make five or minus three; and sometimes the blackboard topples down in the middle of the sum and leaves the class in disorder and the pedagogue with a black eye.”

– Winston Churchill



“Your heart has been sore wounded too.

Dear Light, love shall cherish you,

till you again look on life with happy eyes.”

– Byron Caldwell Smith, letter to Kate Stephens



Perfection Amidst The Imperfect

God is the perfect poet



Perfection Amidst The Imperfect



A canvas sky slashed with gold

A planet far away

The sea all shimmering silk

Break of a new day


Wind whipping over water

Waves lapping the shore

Stars in velvety heavens

The sun rising once more


Sunshine on my face

Wind in my hair

Lively chatter of Seagulls

Warmth hanging in the air


Dance of a flickering flame

Lilies in full bloom

Gilt edged clouds

A full silvery moon


Snow falling in winter

Leaves brown and gold

Laughter carried on the wind

Mountains so very old


Kind words; a warm smile

A hug from a friend

Rain falling soft and light

A universe without end


Perfection amidst the imperfect

A force powerful and near

Reaches out and touches us

It banishes all the fear


We are bound together

The ancient with the new

It grounds us

Presents us with another view


These perfect things lead us to truth

Unburden and set free

They show us what is

And quietly whisper of things to be






Sunrise over Brighton le Sands