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Do Over

 

Al and Rach Collage

 

 

Do Over

 

 

I want a do over

 

Please

Can I?

 

I want to take back

Those words I didn’t say

Those things I didn’t do

I want to stop the tide

I want to have you by my side

 

I want a do over

 

I want to take back

The time I didn’t try

 

I want to take back

When I didn’t dry those tears

You didn’t cry

 

I want to take back

The things I didn’t see

But should have

 

I want to have you here

Here where you should be

 

I want you to know

It wasn’t that I didn’t care

It was that I didn’t realise

 

I didn’t see

I didn’t hear

You needed me

 

I was in so much of my own pain

I couldn’t feel anything else

I couldn’t see beyond

I was numb

I was deaf, mute and dumb

 

But I should have seen

I should have been

Your friend

 

I should have thought

I should have caught

Your despair

 

I should have known

I should have shown

I care

 

But I was too late, you were too far

And now here we are

 

I want a do over

 

Back in time

Back before

Back to then

 

I’ll see, I’ll listen

I’ll realise

 

And if I don’t

I’ll scream at myself

Until I do

 

I’ll feel

I’ll be your friend

Like I should have been back then

I’ll defend

 

I want a do over

 

 

Rach

2015

 

 

“Our brothers and sisters are there with us from the dawn of our personal stories to the inevitable dusk.”  – Susan Scarf Merrell

 

“Our siblings push buttons that cast us in roles we felt sure we had let go of long ago — the baby, the peacekeeper, the caretaker, the avoider…. It doesn’t seem to matter how much time has elapsed or how far we’ve travelled.” – Jane Mersky Leder

 

“It was nice growing up with someone like you — someone to lean on, someone to count on… someone to tell on!” – Anon

 

 

 

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Al

 

Al & Me 2 Collage with Quote by Clara Ortega

 

 

Al

 

 

 

 

I didn’t realize it

Until he went away

How much I’d miss him

How much I wish he could stay

 

Sitting at the airport

After saying goodbye

I suddenly felt

An overwhelming urge to cry

 

Al had made a real effort

When times had been bad

To help me get out

To keep me from getting too sad

 

He bought me a bike

He took me to soccer

And I know if he hadn’t cared

He really wouldn’t have bothered

 

We had some issues

A few problems earlier on

But we got over those

And learnt to get along

 

I found Al’s sense of humor

And love of good wine

Made him the best company

When I needed to unwind

 

And there isn’t a more passionate

Or fanatical football fan

Playing it and watching it

Whenever he can

 

But I love football

So that suited me too

And Al and I

Watched a live match or two

 

But our taste in movies

Is a little bit different

I like a happy ending

Whereas Al likes them deep and a bit bent

 

But we always enjoyed it

No matter how bad the movie turned out to be

The beer afterwards really helped us forget

The crap we’d wasted ten bucks to see

 

So even when it was hard

When all I wanted to do was cry

We still had fun together

Al and I

 

I realize now

Al was as hurt as me in his own way

He just didn’t say it as much

In that typical guy way

 

But now we are both doing well

Seems our wounds are healing

We understand each other better

We have more fellow feeling

 

Al’s a good guy

He’s a great brother

And I’m really happy that we have

More appreciation for each other

 

So it’s kind of sad

Now things are happy and everything is ok

To be so far apart

To be so far away

 

But I guess missing Al

Is better than not

Because at least it shows

We’ve both grown up a lot

 

I will always remember

That when the chips were down

Al was there for me

And helped me turn things around

 

That’s what family is for

That’s what brothers and sisters do

They give and forgive

And they love (erk choke argh spit) each other too

 

 

 

Rach

2009

 

 

~ for my brother and my friend,  Al ~

 

 

“I don’t believe an accident of birth makes people sisters or brothers.

It makes them siblings, gives them mutuality of parentage.

Sisterhood and brotherhood is a condition people have to work at.”

– Maya Angelou

 

 

 

“After a girl is grown,

Her little brother

– Now her protector –

Seems more like a big brother.”

– Astrid Alauda

 

 

 

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