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Do Over

 

Al and Rach Collage

 

 

Do Over

 

 

I want a do over

 

Please

Can I?

 

I want to take back

Those words I didn’t say

Those things I didn’t do

I want to stop the tide

I want to have you by my side

 

I want a do over

 

I want to take back

The time I didn’t try

 

I want to take back

When I didn’t dry those tears

You didn’t cry

 

I want to take back

The things I didn’t see

But should have

 

I want to have you here

Here where you should be

 

I want you to know

It wasn’t that I didn’t care

It was that I didn’t realise

 

I didn’t see

I didn’t hear

You needed me

 

I was in so much of my own pain

I couldn’t feel anything else

I couldn’t see beyond

I was numb

I was deaf, mute and dumb

 

But I should have seen

I should have been

Your friend

 

I should have thought

I should have caught

Your despair

 

I should have known

I should have shown

I care

 

But I was too late, you were too far

And now here we are

 

I want a do over

 

Back in time

Back before

Back to then

 

I’ll see, I’ll listen

I’ll realise

 

And if I don’t

I’ll scream at myself

Until I do

 

I’ll feel

I’ll be your friend

Like I should have been back then

I’ll defend

 

I want a do over

 

 

Rach

2015

 

 

“Our brothers and sisters are there with us from the dawn of our personal stories to the inevitable dusk.”  – Susan Scarf Merrell

 

“Our siblings push buttons that cast us in roles we felt sure we had let go of long ago — the baby, the peacekeeper, the caretaker, the avoider…. It doesn’t seem to matter how much time has elapsed or how far we’ve travelled.” – Jane Mersky Leder

 

“It was nice growing up with someone like you — someone to lean on, someone to count on… someone to tell on!” – Anon

 

 

 

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